I should be used to side-effects by now.

That statement alone is all kinds of messed up. Who says things like that?

The thing is, before now, anything that had any serious side effects would be trashed in favour of something else less troubling because usually those side-effects make me completely useless for anything other than just sleeping or laying around feeling sorry for myself. But this one ... this one is interfereing with my sleep. Badly.

I take in the morning because of the tendency for sleeplessness. Except, even taking it in the morning is interefering with my sleep at nights. If I manage to fall asleep, I am awake within a half hour, wide awake and fidgety. I toss and turn until about 4 or 5 in the morning, and then I sleep until midday. Unless I force myself to get out of bed. And then I spend the day fighting the sleep ... or giving in and sleeping all day. Which starts that vicious cycle ... I am awake all night until 4 or 5 in the morning and ...

Well ... you get the idea.

One thing that has been good is that I finally figured out how to get the RSS feeds working for this blog now. I realised it only works if I don't remove the whole directory when I publish... and the drone pipeline I have replaces all the files anyway - no matter what I do. Of course, Pelican does have the capability to publish directly to production. And I even had it working before with the Makefile it will make for you automatically. But then, something in my configuration was causing my settings files to get all fucked up.

I mean ... it's like I cannot get anything right. I can't work, I can't play, I can't sleep, I can't stay awake, I can't function. And I am pretty tired of it.

The answer is here ... somewhere. I just need an hour or two of clear thinking to figure it out properly ...